P90X Day 0 again

I still haven't started the workouts but am following the meal plan again today, I'm trying to reinforce in my mind the importance of the foods I eat and understanding that it's what fuels my body and will give me energy and regeneration for the workouts.
It was Dads birthday today and I resisted lemon meringue pie and ice cream. I was really nervous seeing them sitting there, worried I would eat one when the time came. Saying no was easier when Tyler said he idn't want one, then I wasn't alone on it.

Breakfast
protein shake

Snack
fiber 1 bar
homemade recovery drink

Lunch
meal shake
yogurt 1/2 cup

Snack
egg yolk

Supper
pork steak 10oz
spinach salad 1 cup
baked potatoe 1
margarine 1/2 tsp

P90X Day 0

Weight 175.4

I say day zero, because I wanted to begin the nutrition plan before the exercise plan to get the good nutrients in my body and give me more energy for the workouts.
I went to Walmart with Medori to pick up cat food and resisted buying a chocolate bar or some other little snack, which am in the custom of doing.

Breakfast
Mushroom omlette
strawberries 1 cup
cottage cheese 1cup

Snack
fiber 1 bar
homemade recovery drink

Lunch
meal shake

Snack
20 almonds

Supper
squash apple pumpkin peak of the market soup 2 cups
ham + pineapple pizza 1 slice

Other
milk 1 cup

Distracted and Discouraged

Hello, my name is Meghan and I'm overwieght... still. I keep sitting around waiting for a miracle but nothing seems to be happening my pants are still tight, I feel embarased when I walk across a room my thighs fall over the edge of the chairs I sit in, bla. I look at the common pre pregnancy high school girl, the me of 2009 and mothers.

Why is it that most of the time after having a child women just, ahblu, plump up? I supose that school kind of keeps you distracted from food, there's all morning and evening to fit a workout in and you've only got yourself stading in the way of getting it done. As a mom it's me and my fridge home all day, I've got to have a will of steel to get my workout in, first I've got to care for baby, then I've got to get through any excuses and set aside all distractions and protests to turn on that video AGAIN ugg I don't know if I can handle that excesivly excited voice chiming at me anymore "your having fun right, you won't do it if your not having fun, your going to do this over and over because you your having so much fun!!!!"

I'll admit it does feel good after a workout the sense of accomplishement the burn in my muscles from the work, I was so discouraged after my last fit test that I've gone three weeks with only one workout a week. I didn't do yesterday's eigther, but I did do todays. It also sucks that we have no groceries... again. The house is in an uproar because of construction everything is allover the place, we have just about no food in the house except soup and oatmeal, the chaos is distracting and discouraging.

I never know what to expect or if I'll have food or not because my husband has no concept of finacial planning, "we have no money" then he goes and eats out... yeah riiiight I thought we had no money, you know we could buy enough ground beef for a month for your 15 dollar lunch.

I MISS SEEING 155 LBS ON THE SCALE AND FEELING THIN HEALTHY AND SEXY D=

The proof is in the Pudding

Quite literaly, the double P's pudding and pants size. Pudding being my big flabbykin belly there's no lying to them about what I ate or how much effort I put into my workouts, my self dicipline is written all over my body for anyone to read. Yeah a little down cause of the one month fit test and messure. I lost half an inch in my belly, gained half an inch in my hips and am up 3 lbs, man I've been working out so hard though...

It's the diet, the diet is killing me I've been keeping track on my calandar days I eat healthy, and I have two on record for the past month of turbo jam. Also, though I do 20-40 minutes of workout five days a week, what am I doing the rest of the day? Sitting around eating unhealthy food, that's not going to get me anywhere.

17 Days of Turbo Jam

I've now done 10 workouts in total, I'm impressed. Diet is still no good though so I'm really sabotaging my potential results by my food weeknessess... not having a kitchen right now due to renovations doesn't help. I'm pretty sure I've become a stress eater, I'm stressed that I can't cook so I eat a lot of junk and I eat out not good, though there are healthy options.

Something isn't working and I wonder how long it's going to take for me to get it through my head that no amount of food is going to be enough. I can't eat that chocolate craving away I have to fight it off and then it will leave me alone once I beat it into submition and show it who's boss of this here body. Yeah, I need to become a part of chocohaulics anonimous or something because I can't touch the stuff or I go nuts for more and more every day, and donuts...

Exercise:
Mission Accomplished I did my turbo jam for today =D

Food:
Eating: 3 pieces of cake, 3 cups coffee, ate very little throughout the day a couple pb&j toasts then overate at supper.

Going strong with Turbo Jam Day 13

Wow, I can't believe it, 13 days and I've only missed two of my schedualed workouts, one of which I made up for on a break day, so only missing 1 workout of all that are suposed to be completed is pretty impressive I think =)
I felt it yesterday, I did Ab Jam for the first time and wow I felt good the next morning. Today was my first day with Cardio Party and I'm sure my lungs and heart are thanking me.

Food is still sabotaging my efforts though, I may have only missed one day of working out but I have only eaten well on one day of all 13 which is pretty bad... in these days not only have I eaten wrong portions and at wrong times, but also have had about ten donuts, five chocolate bars and an excessive amount of peanut butter, which are my foods of weekness. So the plan is, tomorrow I'm going to do three things toward improving the things fueling my body:

1. Set my cell phone's alarm for every two hours and eat within an hour of the alarm going off.
2. Take my vitamin in the morning and my fish oil pills three times throughout the day.
3. Record everything I'm about to eat and the time I eat it, before it goes in the mouth.

Turbo Jam Day 11

How many times have I tried making a go at a fitness routine or building healthy eating habits now on this blog? I sure read, write and think enough about it, but it's doing it that matters. I'm proud of my eating habits through my pregnancy as I nurished my body well and it rewarded me with extremely minimal stretch marks and a completely flat belly once my little girl was out of it (10lb 2oz not so little I supose) It's the porstnatal health that's getting me down.

I had a bit of coasting health from my highly active lifestyle before pregnancy and then during I kept moderately active and conciously ate well for the baby, afterward though through getting off to a rough start with breastfeeding I heard that I was to thin to produce enough milk or wasn't eating enough, so I started eating everything I could find and all my energy was poured into pumping and feeding babe wich meant a lot of sitting around mingled with resting in between. Now that things are going well I want to find an appropriate balance of exercise, nutrition, and rest.

I've succesfully been eating more veggies, among other foods I munched on a head of broccoli and three leaves of lettuce yesterday and I'm very proud of myself for staying away from some birthday cheese cake. In the eleven days I've been following the beginner turbo jam routine I've only eaten clean for one, and that was yesterday. Today was really bad, I ate a big meal at noon, a cream filled crousant at 2, then an enormous meal at 8. Bad portion control and timing, which as I have come to understand are both important aspects in healthy eating.

I really didn't want to do my workout today, not at all, in fact I didn't do it until 11 pm, when I put babe to bed and decided that I was only going to get one chance to put that X on the calandar saying I did my workout today and that was today so I got up and did it yay me!

It doesn't matter that I've many different starts and read many books, it just matters that I don't give up because with dedication I believe I will make it to health again.