Being Healthy an overview

I am finally seeing that health begins with a simple statement, that is not just said, but felt and believed. That statement is some like, "I want to take care of myself." or "I want to honor myself." It takes effort and patience to really slow down enough in life to pay attention to our dietary habits. Yet to really regain your health, you need to carefully listen to the signals your body is telling you about how much foods to eat, and what types of foods to eat.

"The best way to find out about your unconscious apart from dream analysis is by doing what I call the Daily Review. With its help you can find out your true reactions to certain events; you begin to pull off masks and stop pretenses. You can find out where your actions go against a spiritual law.

The daily review should be conducted in the following manner:

Let the whole day pass in front of your eyes and in your memory; think of everything that has happened and has given you, in some way, a disharmonious feeling or reaction.

And no matter how wrong the other may have been, the moment you have been negatively touched by it, there must be something wrong within you. Write down in a few words the occasions, your reactions and associations. If you follow this practice through for some time to come, and not just once or twice, but faithfully, you will see after a while a clear pattern emerging.

At first, these disharmonious incidents will appear entirely unconnected and isolated; they will be meaningless for you. Later on you will begin to sense and, in time, clearly understand the pattern. This will help greatly.

Pray for enlightenment and guidance every time you conduct the daily review. Then ideas will flow into you and will eventually furnish you with further clues, though at first they may not make sense to you. Do not discard any of the ideas; do not resist them. Later on, all of them will form a clear picture. As with a puzzle, when you look at the pieces, you cannot see the picture, but if you patiently put them together, you will succeed."

Day 10 totally broken dieting

Dang. I don't use words like that, I don't even think words like that, I'm a hypercleanmouth/head. I used to feel hot and attractive, eleven months ago. I feel like crap today D= no the diet is not going well nor the excercising. I can't be completely negative though, at almost three months old, the little girl has finally learned how to breastfeed like a champ so, yeah, a beautiful ray of sunshine to brighten my dark day.

I had the flu for the past two days and today woke up with a bladder infection and heat rash ouch it's not fun stuff at all.

My husband has been doing stuff for christmas with his work that I'm not able to come to because of caring for baby so on top of barely seeing him between taekwondo (five days a week) I also haven't seen him all weekend, I used to love doing that stuff with him.

I've been staying at the place where I work the last two days to visit because my house is lonely and since I'm not doing their food shopping anymore they only had tinned soup and peanut butter and jam sandwiches so on top of everything I feel terrible from what I've been eating.

He came to where I work to visit and he disrespects me in front of the youth I work with constantly, "can you get me a cookie I'm feeding the baby" "get your own damn cookie" and didn't want to go home though I was tired of being there especially since one of the girls has taken a particularly bad attitude toward everything and isn't ever happy, I was completely sick of her negative combacks to anything said. So I left and I'm home alone with baby though I do hate being lonely I hate negative attitudes and disrespect more.

This evening I expereinced that frightened feeling that scares me to the marrow of my bones, that I won't be able to take care of her, that I won't be able to handle it and will just break and give up, hand her over to someone and say please I can't take it anymore just formula feed her and leave me alone. But I want so badly to be a good mother and I love her dearly, which is why those thoughts scare me so badly. I couldn't imagine her confused little face wondering why I wasn't there she relies on me completely. I can't even leave her with aunty or grandma with expressed milk to go shopping anymore lately, she won't take her bottle and cries for me almost inconsolably.

I just feel crappy inside and out today. Physically, relationally, emotionally, even spiritually just crappy. My overall health just isn't well.

My "dark day" is pretty pathetic when compared to what other people are going through around the world, I just had to write it out to get my head on straight again and put things into perspective I'm already feeling a bit better about things, thank you blog. And I don't care if I've not done my best these last ten days I'm not a quiter it seems determination is ingrained in my nervous system.

I will beat this and get back on track. I will feel hot and good looking again, I will be in control of my body again to subject it to my dieting, excercise and other wills. I will take my measurements today. Because 20 days from now I'm going to be taking more progress pictures ready or not and there dang (oh oh bad word again) well better be some progress! because there is dang well going to be some effort put it to get them results.

Day 4

Didn't excercise today, unless you count being tired and out of breath from five minutes of pushing a van out of the snow, so I did get a bit of physical activity today at least I wasn't just sitting around.

Eating went okay but not great I had three cookies some jello and two pieces of cinnamon raising toast, other than that I ate good food but once again, good food on top of the bad, perhaps going from bad food to good food is going to be a gradual transition?

Day 3

I gotta say eating today was great! Compared to the last two days anyway. I ate only good stuff

One thing I have to work on is my eating scedual, part of this whole plan is to eat at regular intervals, that is a small meal or snack every 2-3 hours until three hours before bed. Today I did have three cups of hot chocolate, but I resisted a seven up float and I am so happy I did. I want to comit 90 days to eating the kinds of food and getting moderate excersise that'll give me energy and confidence. I feel so crapy when I eat food and sit around all the time.

Alright, off I go to do my excersise if my little girl will stay asleep long enough.

Excercise:
Jillian Michaels - The Biggest Winner Shape-up backside

Food:
A smoothie in the morning
Brown rice, pulled pork, and veggies
About a cup of pasta in the evening
With yogurt and trail mix for snacks in between

Day 2

So yesterday I had access to good food finally, but ate bad food on top of the good so not that great of a start to my 90 days of healthy eating. I anticipate todays going to be a hard one too. It's Becks birthday and we're having a tea party and watching Jane Austin videos. There's going to be cheescake and other dainties oh nooos.

I'd like to say, since it's a birthday I should make an exception, but my family is so big that there's a birthday every month if not some other party, like Christmas... so that's not going to work, I'll just have to have very small portion sizes and limit how much of it I eat and be sure not to miss my workout today.

I know! I'll make sure to stay filled up on water and eat a good portion of the healthy food available, like tuna and egg salad sandwiches, so I don't have any hunger leading me to eat the bad stuff. Yeah, let's see how that goes.

How did the party go? Well I resisted a cookie before the party, then during the party I feel I was moderate in my intake for the most part though I didn't take just a sliver of cake as I'm suposed to, I took two whole pieces and that's cheesecake we're talking about here. At the end I considered taking one last sugar cookie but resisted, yay me. I also had four cups of coffee with flavoured creamer (I can't resist that stuff it's amazing) and a small glass of wine.

Day 1 Photos

Finally getting back on track

For a while we where so tight on funds that I couldn't afford all the healthy foods I would usually love to be able to buy like fruit and veggies, We where mostly living off the good mercy of parents, going over for meals etc.

Now today I've eaten very well and did an excercise routine to boot.

Excercise: Jillian Michaels - The Biggest winner kickboxing and tomorrow I hope to do another one in that same series.

Food:
Mixed Berry Smoothie
Sole and Veggie Rice
Vector cereal
Yogurt
Pear
Chicken, Crab and veggie stir fry on whole grain noodles
... ok, I had a mars bar =P

After the mars bar I really got track. My husband and I went out to my parents and I had six cookies, a bowl of ice cream, glass of wine and cup of coffee with flavoured creamer.